WHAT, THEN, DO YOU LOOK LIKE?

there is a simple yet so breathtakingly profound truth that’s been winding its way through me lately. I’ve been letting it take its time to change & grow me. I’ve been doing a lot of that these days… a lot of changing & a lot of growing.

I’m thankful. the Divine & holy process of soul expansion is the loveliest, most intimate thing to happen to a human being, and it’s hard & wonderful & so so incredible & freeing, and I’m. Just. So. Thankful.

so, this truth… here it is:

you will always start to look like what you believe in.

did you catch that, friend?

you will ALWAYS start to look like what you believe in.

always. whatever you believe in with all of your heart will always manifest within you, burrowing roots and growing branches, laden with spiritual fruit, stretching out of you for all of the world to see.

it will become the breadth of who you are.
it will become the way that people see you.
it will become your forever-mirror.
it will become your legacy.

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what, then, do you look like?

who are your beliefs making you into?

if your beliefs are full of legalism, exclusivity, suspicion, fear, hierarchy, privilege, condescension, or threatening language… you’re going to look a lot like hatred, bigotry, arrogance, superiority, and anger.

if your beliefs are full of mercy, loyalty, hope, patience, kindness, peace, faithfulness, goodness, love, joy, self-control… well, you’re going to look like that.

it’s my raw longing, babes, to look like love.
to look love-ly.
it’s honestly all I want in the world… for all the souls around me to see me and think “wow, that’s what love looks like.” because that’s who my Jesus is. Love.

and did you notice that many of the latter things are what we like to call the fruit of the Spirit? yeah… remember where Scripture also tells us that it’s all about the fruit of our lives… all about the growing up and out of us of the blessedness of grace?

so what do you look like?

what do you want to look like?

THIS GLORIOUS HOUSE

hi babes.

it’s been a bit, huh?

lots of processing and healing and (I’ll be real) just plain craziness going down over here. and it’s GOOD. I’ve got some insane stuff that I’m currently working on which will be coming at you next month… and it is honestly just the culmination of some of the biggest dreams & greatest fears of my heart that I didn’t even know I had, y’all. so you’re not gonna want to miss it.

I thought it might be profitable for me to let you into the sweetness that is this journey for me, and to break open some of that breathlessness that has been rebuilding me…

because sometimes I need to be reminded that what comes to me is for me. that what takes part in my deconstruction does, by default, take part in my rebuilding. that all the things that are happening in me now are working to make a greater and more purposeful future that is so worth living.

what about you?

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I love the visualization of being the dwelling place of Grace & Truth.. a house in which the Divine feels at home… a residence for the Spirit of Peace. that is a picture that has always just spoken to me really deeply. and what’s lovely is that in the book of Haggai I get this whole new insight into what that could mean, into what it must mean, as I read about the people of God rebuilding the temple.

“the future glory of this house will be greater than the past glory… and in this place I will give you peace…” Haggai 2:9

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FOR THE BRUISED & BUSTED UP

hey there family.

how’s your heart doing? how does life feel against your skin? how’s the weight on your shoulders?

heavy?

yeah… me, too.

because I’ve been struggling real fierce with the weight lately. with the heaviness of all that the world is. all that the Way is. all the healing and woundedness in the world.

I’ve been taking more pauses for deep breaths meant to cleanse and pause and bring shalom into my heart. more because there’s more to breathe against. more to fear. more wounds to bind up.

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the world is heavy, and the weight is fearsome, and the depth of the rawness of our humanity is leagues and leagues more so than the ocean. and we must find a way to breathe through it, to surrender to the healing, even as the arrows pierce our hearts.

and all the bitter hypocrisy, all the callous & graceless acts of others, all the hard work for more disappointment, all the exhaustion and survival, all the confusion and frustration of WHY IS THIS THE WAY IT IS… sometimes it just leaves me bruised & busted up in my soul. Continue reading “FOR THE BRUISED & BUSTED UP”

YOU DON’T NEED MORE FAITH… THAT’S IMPOSSIBLE, ANYWAY

ever had someone tell you that you “just need to have more faith”?

aside from being kind of judgy & just plain unhelpful (that’s a blog post for an entirely different time), it’s biblically inaccurate and impossible. yeah, you did actually read that correctly. 😉 and there’s an overflowing amount of freedom that comes with no longer striving for this imaginary amount of faith you have to reach in order to no longer be deemed “less than” or “not enough” by humanity.

I mean, let’s take it back and actually look at scripture, okay?

“For I say, through the grace that was given me… think reasonably, as God has apportioned to each person a measure of faith.”
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did you catch that? yeah, you’ve already been given every ounce of faith you need, planted deep in your soul since the moment you said “yes” to healing. it’s already been measured out, and Divine Love didn’t shortchange you. I promise.

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you don’t need “more faith”, because Jesus doesn’t deprive us of what our souls need.
you don’t need “more faith”, because you weren’t haphazardly tossed together.
you don’t need “more faith”, because the power of grace didn’t run out before it got to you.
you don’t need “more faith”, because Divine Love doesn’t allow you to suffer meaninglessly.
you don’t need “more faith”, because He isn’t dangling it in front of your nose, then handing it to someone else. Continue reading “YOU DON’T NEED MORE FAITH… THAT’S IMPOSSIBLE, ANYWAY”

I DON’T DO RESOLUTIONS // MY #ONEWORD365 FOR 2017

this is a post that I’ve been really excited to share for quite some time now… even though I wasn’t entirely sure what it would look like 🙂

while it’s never been a public thing for me, and not something I chose to share on the blog, I’ve practiced this idea of having a single word to guide and represent my year for the past couple of years.

I love #oneword365 and the way that they really rally around and create tribe in a beautiful, holistic way for those trying to live their words! so, if this is something you find yourself really connecting to by the end of this post, definitely click here and go give ’em a visit. (this isn’t sponsored- I just really love these peeps!)

here’s the idea: instead of creating a list of things to do, or to not do, in the new year (which are pretty much either abandoned or causing you to pull your hair out by the time march rolls around), you just find one, solitary word that resonates with your soul, and you choose that as your battle-cry and banner for the coming year. or, more accurately, it chooses you; or that’s what it feels like. more often than not, the word you’ve been running from is the word you need. (don’tcha hate that?)

I’ve been searching for my word for almost three months. and even though I’ve pretty much known it since the beginning, it took me until the end of the creative retreat I did at the beginning of this week (more on that later!) to fully embrace it and own it.

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it’s time. no more messing around. it’s my word that’s been given to me, and I’m running with it, clinging to it, breathing it in and becoming more comfortable with it in my life.  Continue reading “I DON’T DO RESOLUTIONS // MY #ONEWORD365 FOR 2017”

LET THE WEAK SAY “I AM A WARRIOR”

I never really thought of myself as a strong woman.

I realize that goes against so much of what I try to live and say and evoke in others here on the blog, but that’s just how it is. for years, I carried the word “fragile” like a brand- a word that had been jammed into my heart by careless conversation and accidental judgement from those close to me. “yup. fragile. it’s all I am, all I could ever hope to be… just fragile.” my inner dialogue was so abusive!

to this day, being called fragile is a trigger which, while I rarely run into, I continuously have to work through and release because I now recognize it does not belong to me or in me.

I stumbled across the most beautiful portion of scripture yesterday as I was doing some Pinterest research (it is too totally a thing) for something completely unrelated, and I was so enamored that I immediately had to go pull out my Bible and read the full passage to soak in all its goodness. it struck me because it spoke to the fragility we’re afraid lives in us, to the fear of our own perceived weakness, to the bold voice and unapproachable courage we are convinced will never be ours…

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you’ve got to hear this, friend.

“beat your plowshares into swords, and your pruning hooks into spears; let the weak say, “I am a warrior.” …bring down your warriors, O Lord.”
// Joel 3:10&11 //
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50 WAYS TO PRACTICE SELF CARE

with all the chaos that our lives have been over the last week, I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about priorities and what it looks like to keep myself safe and healthy and well of body & spirit during these really wild and trying seasons of life.

for any preggo mamas out there, you know just how much harder it is when you’ve got a little one sending hormones surging through your body (and kicking you repeatedly) on top of whatever tough stuff you’ve got going on.

it’s especially hard not just to recognize those priorities, but also be able to enforce them with yourself and the people around you without feeling guilty. it’s difficult, though 100% necessary in order to be able to stay healthy for you, and for the health of the people who are relying on you!

make sure you have someone who will check up on YOU and be sure you are okay, making time for yourself, getting enough sleep or food, and staying healthy.

so out of this, I decided to sit down and come up with several ways to practice the all-important act of self-care. ❤ I hope you can find a few ways to show yourself some TLC!

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50 ways to practice self care Continue reading “50 WAYS TO PRACTICE SELF CARE”

BOOK GIVEAWAY TIME!

you guys!! 

you have responded so well to my new scripture study that I released about a week ago, and I want to celebrate by GIVING ONE AWAY FOR FREE!! 

if you don’t already know, the 21-day study is all about figuring out who YOU were designed to flourish as, underneath the rubble that we’ve created in trying to become what we and everyone else expects of us. why? because only in living in that state of original True Design do we start to understand what we are meant for, what the gospel is all about, and how we relate to Jesus- Love Incarnate. this is where we find our purpose, become women of strength and bravery and boldness, and learn to live under grace instead of the bondage of shame

it’s some GOOD STUFF! 


So here’s what’s going to happen:

1.) on the BLOG, read this post. (good job!)

2.) on FACEBOOK, (make sure you’ve liked us first!) share this post & in that share, tag a friend who you think would love this study! (You can share directly from the untidy grace creative co. Facebook page)

3.) on INSTAGRAM, (be sure to follow us first!) find the above photo (Insta handle is untidygracecreativeco)- then give it a great big LIKE and tag another friend!

the giveaway closes Saturday at midnight (pacific standard time), and then ONE WINNER will be announced on Sunday afternoon! 🙂 

are you excited yet?!

“YOU’RE GOOD” // A WORD ON WEDNESDAY

if you’ve grown up in church your whole life like I have, then this title probably sounds like sacrilege.

if you’ve struggled with any type of body-shaming or negative self-talk, then this title probably sounds like a too-good-to-be-true dream.

if you’ve battled anxiety or depression or another mental illness, then this title probably sounds like a downright lie.

the point is- no matter who we are or where we come from, if we’re used to the depth of our brokenness, the belief that we’re good is not one that we can swallow easily. it’s not something we’re used to accepting. it’s not an easy thing to wrap our arms and our hearts around.

and this simple statement doesn’t feel so simple.

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but regardless of our difficulty to accept or believe it… it’s true.

you were made good. I was made good. it’s in the way your spirit and body were knit together. it’s in the very basics of the blueprint of your image-bearing, namaste-breathing self (more on what image-bearing is all about here). it’s woven into every piece of your soul and spoken over the very beginning of you true self.

you’re good. Continue reading ““YOU’RE GOOD” // A WORD ON WEDNESDAY”

Namaste.

mmmmm. this word, you guys.

for those of you who don’t practice yoga, you may be surprised at how downright biblical this word gets. 😉 if I’m being honest, at the core, that’s why I love Holy Yoga so much… the parallels in yoga to so many of the truths in Scripture are startling and eye-opening. “Namaste” is one of those.

I remember in 2011 when I went to India for a missions trip, we would often greet the native people in return with the response of “namaste” or “namaskar”. it’s a common Indian greeting which carries significant spiritual and cultural weight. it isn’t just the word either, it’s nearly always accompanied by the pressing together of one’s hands over one’s heart, and bowing forward gently.

it’s also a word and gesture that in western cultures has been contorted, or is just said by heated yoga-practicing white girls because that’s what their teacher concludes class with. (sorry.) if we’re honest, most of us (even some of us who do practice yoga) don’t know what this word means.

online Yoga Journal defines it this way: “The gesture Namaste represents the belief that there is a Divine spark within each of us… The gesture is an acknowledgment of the soul in one by the soul in another.

so here’s the thing. while, as Jesus followers, we certainly don’t believe that we ourselves are divine, we do believe that we are made in the image of God, or in other words, carry the signature of the One true Divine in the very core of who we are as humanity. this is why tragedy is tragic. this is why loss of life is so terrifying. (more on that here.)

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how often do we forget this? how often do we allow careless words and judgement to come between us and others, forgetting Jesus’ words that “whatever you do for them, you do for me.” (paraphrased) how often do we treat our fellow humanity like nuisances to be ignored or creatures to be judged?

how often would we do this if we truly remembered that they are Image-bearers? how often would we sin against one another if we constantly acknowledged the Divine spark, the Image of God in the faces of those we interact with?

Namaste is our reminder that we have all been created in His image, that we are all walking resemblances of our Creator, however tainted and torn it has become. Namaste is the word that brings us back to the basic belief that God so loved the world… and that we are called to do the same. Namaste is the gesture that nudges us to make ourselves low, to humble ourselves because we all bear the same image, and none of us is better than another.

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So when your next class ends, and the teacher bows her gentle “Namaste”, look around you and soak in His image. look around you and walk in love towards humanity. look around you and be gentle in love and firm in truth and bold in your very soul because you bear the image of the Divine.