MY 2018 WORD OF THE YEAR

babes!! it’s 2018… can you even believe it?
there were moments of 2017 that I wasn’t even sure I’d see the light of a new year (let’s be real… so did you). it’s just the truth… it was a hell of a year.

my word of the year for 2017 was WHOLE, and I really dug into that and looked at all the parts of myself to see how I could bring the disjointed pieces into harmony. I started to recognize & affirm each of the places in me and call them into the light: my emotional, intellectual, physical, social, environmental, sexual, and spiritual facets. and SO MUCH HAPPENED, babes. I got so much more whole & free this year. I understand myself on such a deeper level than I did at the beginning of last year, and I really do think it’s because my focus was on wholeness. ❤

this year a lot of things died and a few good things were born.

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in 2017 I…
went from a pastor’s wife to an eXvangelical.
didn’t pray for 3 months.
recreated my entire blog.
brought my abuse into the light…
…and both verbally forgave & cut off all contact with my abuser.
couldn’t bring myself to pick up a Bible, except for some of the content of the gospels, for 4 months.
became a mother through the most torturous, redeeming labor.
became a feminist.
lost friends…
…and gained friends.
gained a deeper knowledge of myself as I discovered the Enneagram.
became a believer in universal reconciliation.
started writing poetry again.
began studying Reiki.
stopped believing humanity is inherently depraved the moment I looked into the eyes of my newborn daughter… but didn’t own that truth until months later.
stepped into my power and owned it personally.
found myself, became myself.
began to find joy in every part of God & my spiritual life for the first time I can remember.
climbed literal mountains.
climbed metaphorical mountains.
read loads of books & listened to countless podcasts.
began meditating more consistently.  Continue reading “MY 2018 WORD OF THE YEAR”

THE FULL & BEAUTIFUL LIFE // A FREE E-COURSE!

aaaaand a show of hands for everyone who starts off the new year completely goal-crazed, wild-eyed, over-committed, and caffeine-fueled? and what about that resolution overwhelm?

*raises hand*

you too? yup. that’s about right. I knew I couldn’t be the only one. 😉

well, this year I’m doing things a bit differently.

if you read this blog post, (if you haven’t… read it now ’cause you’re missing out, babe!) you’ll already know I’ve forgone resolutions, goals, and all the chaos that comes with them, and instead opted for an ultra-simple system that focuses on wholeness and staying true to who I am discovering myself to be & what I most need and desire out of life.

aka: no stress, all becoming. sounds just about divine, right?!

so, to celebrate my cutting of ties to the chaos that binds us this time of year, I’ve decided to host a really awesome mini online course for you all to kick off your 2017 in freedom and wholeness!

it’s called “ABC’s of the full & beautiful life”, and it’s a 26-day journey (starting January 2nd!), each day introducing a new word, designed to help inspire a more whole YOU, which corresponds to the next letter in the alphabet.

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it’s for you if:
~ you really want to pick your #oneword365 but can’t decide what word is best for you OR
~ you don’t know what 2017 will hold, or how you want to enter it, but you need a bit of gentle direction while you decide OR
~ you just want more untidy grace in your life OR
~ you’re craving community with people who are trying to figure out this whole life and transition and new year thing OR
~ you need some structure OR
~ you need some inspiration
(or all of the above!)
Continue reading “THE FULL & BEAUTIFUL LIFE // A FREE E-COURSE!”

I DON’T DO RESOLUTIONS // MY #ONEWORD365 FOR 2017

this is a post that I’ve been really excited to share for quite some time now… even though I wasn’t entirely sure what it would look like 🙂

while it’s never been a public thing for me, and not something I chose to share on the blog, I’ve practiced this idea of having a single word to guide and represent my year for the past couple of years.

I love #oneword365 and the way that they really rally around and create tribe in a beautiful, holistic way for those trying to live their words! so, if this is something you find yourself really connecting to by the end of this post, definitely click here and go give ’em a visit. (this isn’t sponsored- I just really love these peeps!)

here’s the idea: instead of creating a list of things to do, or to not do, in the new year (which are pretty much either abandoned or causing you to pull your hair out by the time march rolls around), you just find one, solitary word that resonates with your soul, and you choose that as your battle-cry and banner for the coming year. or, more accurately, it chooses you; or that’s what it feels like. more often than not, the word you’ve been running from is the word you need. (don’tcha hate that?)

I’ve been searching for my word for almost three months. and even though I’ve pretty much known it since the beginning, it took me until the end of the creative retreat I did at the beginning of this week (more on that later!) to fully embrace it and own it.

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it’s time. no more messing around. it’s my word that’s been given to me, and I’m running with it, clinging to it, breathing it in and becoming more comfortable with it in my life.  Continue reading “I DON’T DO RESOLUTIONS // MY #ONEWORD365 FOR 2017”

the untidy grace guide to making the most of january

HAPPY 2016!!
okay okay.
I know.

I’m 11 days late.

I took an initially unintentional hiatus from the blogosphere. I say initially because I didn’t intend to stay away this long. and then I realized I needed to.

I love you all dearly, and I love writing on here and sharing all the things… from the deep places in my heart to the outrageously hysterical to the everyday practical & monotonous. I love it!

but then life happened, and it was wild (in good and bad ways), and then God spoke big truths to my heart through some beautiful humans in my life. and I realized I needed to step back and process. I needed to take a deep breath and re-evaluate why I do this. why I love this. why it matters to me. I needed a few days to just soak in His wisdom and breathe out grace over myself.

I never thought I’d be that blogger who got too obsessed with her views, who got too into figuring out how to make money, who was almost ready to sacrifice the authenticity of her blog because she was in a tight spot. and yet I became that girl. I started to lose sight of why I felt the strain on my heart to begin a blog in the first place. I started determining my worth by the numbers I found when I logged into wordpress, and I started to feel awfully sucky about myself when I didn’t feel like I measured up.

no more, guys. I’m done with being that girl. it’s back to the Moriah who loves what she writes and writes what she loves and isn’t going to post something for the sake of posting. It’s back to the girl who listens intently for God’s voice to see what HE would have her write! I’ve missed her! 😉

not to say there won’t be a whole parade of fun, practical, or real-life posts, (because there so will be!!) but they will have purpose, and they’ll adhere to the whole reason I started this blog in the first place. ❤

so… without further to do…
the untidy grace guide to making the most of january.

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January starts off with high expectations & exciting promises of newness and change. but by the end of the month, so often we are feeling more like same old, same old than full of new life.

here are a few ways to make the most of the new year in January & keep on feeling that breath of new life.

  1. make a schedule… and stick to it.
    decide what time you’re going to get up, and then set your alarm and GET UP. decide what you’re going to eat for breakfast, and have it all ready to go in the morning. schedule everything… your study time, your bible time, your workout. if it’s written down, you’re much more likely to do it. when you get things done, you’ll feel productive! speaking of which…
  2. buy a planner.
    you know, to schedule everything in. 😉 make sure to get one that you can comfortably tote around in your purse or bag. take this guy everywhere. you never know who might ask you to coffee or when the office might need to schedule and unexpected appointment.
  3. take a few moments to breathe.
    I like to do this when I first wake up in the morning. sit cross legged on the edge of the bed and take some deep, energizing breaths. (4 seconds in, pause, 6 seconds out is a good place to start.) you’ll feel recharged, full of energy, and calm to face the day.
  4. pick a mantra/intention/focus for the day/week/month
    my journal (which I got for an easy $15 from target!) has a place to write a special note or focus for the year, the month, and the week. I take advantage of this!! pick a short and encouraging saying, inspirational song lyric, or part of Scripture, and use it as your “anthem” for however long you decide. repeat it to yourself to give you an extra boost of inspiration, set the tone for the day, or get you through a rough moment.
    **mine for this week comes from the good old song Amazing Grace, which we sang in church yesterday: His word, my hope secures**
  5. take care of yourself
    take that extra three minutes to slather on your favorite lotion after you get out of the shower. buy a cute water bottle to remind yourself to stay hydrated. learn to use essential oils to help your body heal naturally. take five when you need to.
  6. get in the Word.
    schedule that time with Jesus. every. single. day. no exceptions. you will not regret this.
  7. dedicate time to your dearest relationships.
    make time for the people who mean the most to you. even if it’s just a quick coffee date. they matter. create the time to show them that in ways that matter to them. hold onto the people that are important by being intentional about loving and doing life with them.
  8. learn something new
    whether it’s picking up yoga or trying a new recipe, try a new thing. make progress. add to the rich and beautiful tapestry that is who you are!

two thousand fifteen // the year is new

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hello, january.
hello, you new year.

you entered in our quiet slumber, our bodies too weary to wait up for your arrival.
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already you’ve been washed in coffee spills and frustrated tears.
somehow you’ve yet, by this time, been un-romanced in sleepy mornings and twangs of pointed protest in aching spines.
our thrill of hope from Christmas Day has waned slightly in the grand foreboding of your outrageous “new you” promises.
yes, by now there has been disappointment in you.

and yet, you’ve brought gentle, stolen, quiet moments in all your wild busy.
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yes, how precious the gentle, stolen, quiet has been…
the swathing of our weary souls in the bandages of tender laughter in honest conversation.
you’ve helped me bring the comfort of God-order into our simple space.
there have been sweet, soft rifts from the hands of my husband on new strings… familiar hands playing old songs…
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you’ve brought rush. excitement. belly-laughs.
hours and hours and hours holding hands behind the dashboard of a used old ford.
crashing choruses in happy-cramped upper rooms.
sweet-nothing moments of tender, squashed in between the blaring screams of excitement.
falling showers of bitter-cold, cleansing rain, which we’ve been often to exhausted to let wash us clean.

oh january… how versatile you’ve heretofore been.

how breathless you’re already leaving me.
how much more?
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to be truthful, you’re here, and I’m sitting in fourteen, still, blinking in the wait for me shock that comes with the sleepy and the busy.
but still, I’m heavy-breathing, breath-holding on the edge of hopeful- what will this year create?
what will Yahweh create this year?

and we’re all stacking up our resolutions like building blocks- stamping out this year like a home for our folly. and so am I. yes, darling, I am too. and we’re all abandoning our human-hearted good intentions like the ring-stained coffee cup sitting in the back seat of the car. and the cough-drop pride-soother of february promises it’s okay.
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oh, dearest. here’s the truth…

where there is no vision, the people perish
// proverbs 29:18 //

are we perishing?
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ur coffee-cup-ring lives are fragile, love.
where is the vision in our petty resolutions?
why are we so resolute in the ordinary?
where is the heart-aching desire for the extraordinary thrill of holy?
(are there resolutions for that?)
where is the chasing-after and pursuit of glory-perspective?

where is the vision?

oh, that Yahweh, the Holy One, would break our hearts- our lives if He must -to fit the weight of glory in.
oh, that our simple lives would be blown open by the wild experience of grace- that our patched-up lives would be broken hard for His Name.
oh, that the stupid thoughts of useless moments would be pushed away by the hard drive of righteousness, bleeding from the truth which we must seek after daily.
oh, that in calm and quiet, our souls would be drawn to perfection in the presence of He who shines the light of the world.
oh, that the very breaths we breathe might remind us of the star-breather… the galaxy-speaker…
oh, that our heart would yearn less for materialism and more for the words of the Word… for the presence of our ever-present God.

oh, that our idols might be broken at the feet of the King.

this string of words and notes will break you…
Clear the stage and set the sound and lights ablaze

If that’s the measure you must take to crush the idols

Jerk the pews & all the decorations, too 

Until the congregations few, then have revival
Tell your friends that this is where the party ends 

Until you’re broken for your sins, you can’t be social
// jimmy needham //

this… this is a new year’s vision.

break our visions into goals and our goals into action- our actions into breathless moments of ceaseless praise.
lock up the vision.
keep it fast inside your heart.
remember this passion.
our God is a God of loyal jealousy.
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I am in the slow re-making of no longer yearning to be a better wife, kinder woman… but a more holy follower.
for the others will be soon behind.

stop binding yourself to resolutions.
renew the Kingdom vision this year.

menu plan monday // happy new year!

hello dearies!

I’m welcoming January with cozy layers of sweaters and half-remaining Christmas nail polish.
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while my official (albeit a wee tardy) new year post will be arriving SOON (think tomorrow morning), I still want to clue you in on a few goals I have for the foodie in me this year 🙂 last year was a great one for experiencing new things- including having to meal plan, cook daily, and grocery shop on a regular basis, all for the first time! whew! I think I did alright (if I do say so myself), but this year I really want to learn new ways of preparing foods, master some techniques, and replace some of those packaged snacks with good ole veggies. here are a few goals I’ve got for myself on this subject…

1 // make 90% of my grocery purchases from the edges of the store- the outside edges of the grocery store generally contain the produce, meats, and dairy, while the inner aisles are full of packaged items, chips, and junk food! I did pretty well at this in 2014, but this year I want to do even better; I’m totally committed to doing 90% of my shopping from those healthy outer edges this year!
2 // drink those much-needed 6 glasses of water daily. right now I am SO BAD about drinking water. like… so bad. but since getting this beauty for Christmas from my amaaaazing husband, I’m hoping that I will get better at this and see some healthy results!!
3 // learn some proper kitchen technique. while I’ve fallen in love with making food this past year, I honestly don’t really know what I’m doing. (heehee) I want to pick a few techniques and perfect them this year!
4 // pack more veggies. guys. packing lunches is hard. I hate doing it. I desperately need to get better at packing healthy lunches for myself. (today I did pretty okay- smoothie ingredients to blend at work for breakfast, leftover grilled chicken and cold veggies for lunch, a ziploc with a few kettle chips, and two gluten free mini macaroons). gonna start begging for this container of lunch-packing perfection for my birthday in a few months. maybe having it would inspire me 😛 also, I totally want to try some of those mason jar salads, floating around pinterest. I’ll keep you guys updated on that one.
5 // snack healthy. especially after Christmas and New Years, I have way too much junk food in the house. I need to start making healthy foods easily grab-able and on-the-go friendly (or just lazy girl friendly… who am I kidding). this is something that is going to take a bit of planning and prep time, so I need to start that planning asap!

not just that, but I’ve undertaken a massive organizing project to my pantry space…
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are those sprinkles not the cutest darn things in that jar??
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I’m not quite done, so those quick glimpses will have to suffice for now 😉

hoping I can accomplish those things this year! it seems pretty doable to me!! 😀

now for the menu plan!

monday // sloppy joes with spiced sweet potato fries + salad
tuesday // grilled honey mustard chicken + sauteed french green beans
wednesday // spaghetti with baguette + salad
thursday // create-your-own pizza with the wee munchkin. (husband and I get to take care of her while her parents are out to dinner!) + cold veggies
friday // broccoli cheddar cheese soup- the Panera copycat kind ❤
saturday // grilled chicken + mason jar salads
sunday // one pan spicy lemon chicken pasta

whew! it’s going to be quite a week! and I’m quite excited! 🙂

what are some of your foodie resolutions for this new year?
what are YOU eating this week?

menu plan monday // a day late

with all the crazy happenings I updated you on yesterday, posting my menu plan got a bit pushed to the side.

so, here you have it- last minute and scrapped together. 🙂 this week i have a couple new recipes on the menu, which I’m very excited to try. I also still have some nice meat left over from last week that I didn’t use when we stayed an extra night with my parents.

tuesday // steak, smashed potatoes, french style green beans
wednesday // chicken tacos with spiced sweet potato fries
thursday // shredded grilled chicken on fruit, burrata, and spinach salad
friday // cardamom honey chicken over rice
saturday // off at a concert! we’ll probably grab dinner with his family
sunday // home made sloppy joes +cold veggies with dip

I’m awfully excited to cozy up and eat these yummy dishes with my man. it’s been dandy visiting everyone, but it’s so nice to be home. alone. together. 🙂 it will be a nice couple of nights, thinking about the coming year and dreaming up the things we want to accomplish and the people we hope to become during it. I’ll be sure to keep you updated! keep your eyes peeled (such a gross saying. why did I just use it.) for our thoughts on new years and plans- they’ll be popping up on here shortly!

until then, enjoy what’s left of this glorious month of December! ❤