THE THING ABOUT #METOO THAT MAKES ME WANT TO SCREAM

hey babes!

if you haven’t read my last post or you have nooo idea what this whole #metoo thing is all about… go read it now! I’ll wait 😉

as I’m sure you can tell, I am a thousand billion percent on board with the genius bravery that is the #metoo movement. I’m thankful that finally, a platform is being given to every woman who has ever suffered the humiliation of sexual harassment, assault, or abuse.

I’m thankful for the push to share my story.

but something happened on Tuesday as I pressed publish, and as I scrolled through my newsfeed, and as I talked with suffering survivors, that chilled me to my bones and set a wild fury in me. something started coming to light that left me physically ill and shaking with a holy rage.


I started noticing a common theme among those who chose to share their story.

shame. embarrassment. a need to explain themselves. covering their tracks. plentiful recognitions of “but so many other people have t worse”. an over-emphasis on why their abuser/attacker/harasser isn’t that bad of a person.

do you understand how utterly disturbing that is?

as women we are trained to be in a constant state of lowliness. we default the blame to ourselves because that is what we have been taught to do. 

we literally end up carrying the shame & guilt for the dehumanizing actions done TO US

we carry the weight of the abused and the abuser.

and it’s wrong. so wrong.

it was an astonishing amount of women who felt guilty posting their story or even those two simple words: me too. 

why would we feel guilty? we didn’t want to make our abusers look bad, didn’t want them to be embarrassed, didn’t want them to have to deal with the torture we’ve been enduring, surviving, silently for years.

it’s conditioning. it’s rape culture.

as I pushed published, my stomach lurched. I was terrified. not that people would know what happened to me, but that people would question me, that people would attack my abuser, that people would roll their eyes at my “need for attention”, that people would suggest I wanted it to happen, that proof of some sort would be demanded of me… the list goes on.

I. should. not. be. the. frightened. one.

the abusers should be the ones afraid & embarassed to let these secrets find the light, NOT the ones abused. 

the abused/assaulted/harassed should feel SAFE in the exposing of this darkness, not condemned, not afraid, not embarrassed. 

this disturbing twisting of who is to blame in the event of abuse/assault/harassment is one of the most blatant views of rape culture.

until we remove the blame from the battered shoulders of the victims & survivors, and place it on those who actually committed the acts of violence and violation, we will never succeed in respecting or elevating women… or even at the very least recognizing & honoring their humanity.

do. better.

if you’re silently whispering “me too”, know you are so loved, so believed, and so innocent of this evil that has been done to you. 

you are worthy of your healing.

ME TOO // A PORTAIT OF SEXUAL HARASSMENT, ASSAULT & ABUSE

TRIGGER WARNING: this post is a true personal portrait of twenty-three year’s worth of sexual harassment, assault & abuse. what’s worse… this story is far from rare.

some things may be painful to read, so please, friend, read with caution.

statistics tell us, that…
1 in 5 women will experience sexual assault.
2/3 of rapes go unreported.
every 98 seconds, sexual assault occurs in our country.
1 out of every 6 women will be the victim of an attempted or completed rape in her lifetime.
90% of all victims are women.
the amount of stress & disorders like PTSD reported by victims is drastically higher than that compared to any other major crime.
((ALL STATISTICS ARE FROM RAINN.ORG))

there are some very clear reasons why I write this post. 

contrary to the victim-shamers, it’s not for attention. (the attention victims gather is nothing anyone would covet.)

I write this to shine a light onto the state of how women are treated.
I write it to give a clear, personal account of real things that real women experience.
I write this as a privileged, white, Christian good-girl.



I write this because someone needs to.

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I write it because it’s my story, and mine alone, to write. Continue reading “ME TOO // A PORTAIT OF SEXUAL HARASSMENT, ASSAULT & ABUSE”

BRING MORIAH TO YOU!

BRING MORIAH TO YOU!

hey babes!

do you read the blog and then wish we could just sit down together in person, chat, and dig in a little deeper? or are you just dying for a deeper feeling of solidarity & understanding of mental illness, deconstructing, personal identity, or all-encompassing wholeness?

well, you’re in luck… because you can bring me to you!

every event is interactive and gentle. I always start by sharing my own story & experiences, before looking deep into the issues that plague us all. these are difficult topics of great importance, so come with the knowledge that there may be triggering moments, though I attempt to minimize them as much as possible. there are always opportunities & specific times set aside during the event for reflection and hands-on processing in a variety of ways.

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yup, I can come speak to you & your friends. I’ve got a few different types of things I offer:

SINGLE EVENING
a 2-hour interactive talk on mental illness, personal identity, or sexuality
MINI RETREAT
an 8-hour interactive mini series on any topic listed below
WEEKEND RETREAT
an evening + full day series on any topic listed below
GUEST SPEAKER
I can also come speak in conjunction with another event you have planned

TOPICS
mental illness
how to recognize it, get help, and live a more full & free life, not in spite of, but because of your intimate battle with mental illness
personal identity
what does it mean to be human? why are we all so deeply wounded? how can we ever become whole again?
live wholeness journey
we look at the 8 facets of wholeness & how to foster healing habits that promote this wholeness in our everyday lives
deconstructing
we’ve all believed destructive things at one point or another- and all of our stories are both different and yet the same. we will talk about the grief process of disillusionment, and how to study what you believe, in order to come to a healthy understanding of what it looks like to rebuild a theology that is an intimate connection between you and Divine Love.
sexuality
we work through the painful entanglements of false purity culture, abuse, victim blaming, and the modesty trap.
yoga love
get in touch with yourself & with Divine Love- mind, body, and soul -by using your body to mirror the posture of your heart. learn how Jesus used yoga to do lots of healing in me, from the inside-out!
**live wholeness journey & deconstructing topics cannot be chosen for single evening events**

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fill out the form below to bring me to you! and let the healing begin ❤
you should receive a response in no more than 4 business days.

YOU ARE NOT A LIABILITY // THE MODESTY MYTHS THAT BREAK & BURY US

MODESTY.

okay babes. can we talk about this word? please?

purity culture, which is a whole massive discussion that can’t be contained in just one blog post (though I made a decent effort here), is rife with the sub-culture of a twisted view of this word “modesty”.

church youth groups are constantly talking about it, from the old catchphrase “modest it hottest!” (let’s all just admit this one was poorly thought through) to the more recent rise of the Great Yoga Pants Wars. for some reason, people are completely obsessed, to a likely unhealthy extent if we’re honest, with modesty.

from the wildly inappropriate comments regarding my body & sex life I received while I was pregnant, to the damnation of the vast majority of swim suits (and often the people who wear them), to suggesting women are to blame for their own objectification, to the brushing off or blaming of sexual abuse victims, to the repulsion with a woman breastfeeding while not hidden in a corner… as these few examples show, so much of the evangelical community is disturbingly obsessed with female bodies.

I think it’s time to destroy some modesty myths here, because beautiful woman… you are not a liability. Continue reading “YOU ARE NOT A LIABILITY // THE MODESTY MYTHS THAT BREAK & BURY US”

MY RITUALISTIC SOUL

I did a bad thing.

well, I did an “oops” thing.

I slacked off on my daily rituals.
I eased out of my sacred moments of self-care.
I somehow lost my sight of the details, in the scope of the big picture.

and disaster struck.

you babes know how often I talk about self care, and soul care, and personal, sacred, daily rituals that help you grow & heal. well… I stopped doing those things. yup. I stopped living what I was preaching. I’m so very very human.

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and, to only prove what I tell y’all on the daily… it. messed. me. up.

the thing about these beautiful daily rituals (the lighting of a candle, the sitting with a cup of hot tea, the time spent journaling or with Jesus, the breakfast carefully crafted…) is that they keep our heart elevated to a place of peace & willingness. they keep our hearts safe enough that they become brave enough to reach out.
when I forget or dismiss these rituals, I become anxious, easily agitated, stubborn, and defensive. that’s why rituals can be especially important for those who suffer from anxiety disorders and other mental illnesses.

we all crave the things that remind us that we can be at peace, grounded, and in connection with ourselves, God, and the world around us. that’s why those daily rituals are SO important. they remind us not just of what’s important in life, but how to find access to those things.  Continue reading “MY RITUALISTIC SOUL”

WHY YOGA?

so… why do you do yoga?

I get this question aaaaallll the time, babes. it’s asked in a thousand different ways by a thousand different people with a thousand different motives.

and I love this question! the truth is, no matter who’s asking it for whatever reason (yup, definitely had people ask me this to try to prove their anti-yoga point), this is a question that never fails to spark some kind of excited flame in me… because oh, why do I practice yoga? let me count the ways, sister. 😉

because it soothes the mind

as someone who has lived with mantal illnesses, primarily anxiety and depression, for roughly 18 years of her 23+ year life, anything that calms my mind without a slew of negative side effects is my best effin friend. putting your physical body through postures of precision, steadiness, and intentionality has a profound calming effect on the brain. the signals sent through your nerves and your breath when you do something as intentional with your body as yoga, tell your brain that you’re alright, that you don’t need to panic. just a few minutes into a practice or flow & I can already feel my mind settling and my thoughts gaining clarity. and that’s priceless!

because it’s really good for your body

there are countless ways that yoga improves your overall physical health. increasing flexibility is just awesome for your body- you’re less likely to injure yourself in accidents or falls, you’re less likely to pull a muscle during another workout, and you’re less prone to stiffness/tension if you’re consistently stretching out your body. teaching your spine proper alignment (especially for those who sit at desks all day!) can make leaps and bounds of change when it comes to healing back, hip, and shoulder pain. alignment can also help clear up issues in the neck and head- for me, personally, my migraines dropped in amount significantly when I began practicing yoga and implementing proper alignment.


because it boosts confidence Continue reading “WHY YOGA?”

3 POWERFUL & PRACTICAL WAYS TO INSPIRE HABITUAL SELF-CARE

hey babes!

I know I talk a lot about self care on here, and I also know how difficult it can be to either just start (I see you, fellow procrastinator) , or to continue a habit instead of relying on emotional bursts of self-care.

so I thought I’d share with you some incredibly practical, one-time things you can do, that will have a long-term effect inspiring enough to keep you on track.

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3 POWERFUL PRACTICAL WAYS TO INSPIRE HABITUAL SELF CARE  Continue reading “3 POWERFUL & PRACTICAL WAYS TO INSPIRE HABITUAL SELF-CARE”